Musings of the Lorekeeper

The good news? I wrote over 2,400 words today.

The bad news? I still didn't meet my goal. Granted, the goal was FINISH THE NOVEL, and that's quite lofty. I didn't realize, word-count-wise, just how lofty it was -- scene-wise it seems just a few things have to unfold, but of course, there are still plenty of picky details on which to get hung up in these parts. That's what makes me such a slow writer; I always get hung up on picky details, whether with realism regarding things I don't know much about or about internal consistency (which leads to me wandering through my previous draft looking to see what I may or may not have said before) which is

And it took me all day to do this. Sitting at my computer from noon until just now, at ten to eleven (with a break in there to watch 1.5 hours of West Wing, and to make lunch and dinner, but both of those were quick) so that's still not fast. And I don't think I'll make my lofty weekend goal, especially since I can't just sit around all day tomorrow writing again. (Well, I could, but I need to go buy food, clothing, and toilet paper, and possibly help a friend with computer problems, and I am not one of those writers who is able to plod on with a story while the rest of my life falls into complete disarray. Not having food makes it hard for me to write for some reason.)

But still. I guess this is what they mean about setting lofty goals so even when you miss them, you still have done okay.

Not that I have decided I'm okay with not reaching my goal just yet. Who knows, maybe tomorrow will be even better despite real life's promised intrusion.

But wow, am I ready to be done with this draft. My e-mail is piling up and I've got other projects (new story projects, website project, and oh, MORE GRAD SCHOOL APPLICATIONS WITH LOOMING DEADLINES, and CATCHING UP WITH E-MAIL) to get on with, and I am more than ready to share THIS story with people. I had hoped to be done with it almost a YEAR ago. Geez.

Still though. I guess 2,400 words isn't all that shabby, eh? Not for ME anyway. (Those of you who think otherwise can do me a favor hold your virtual tongues. ;-p I wish I could write faster!)



P.S. Recently I discovered the PERFECT SONG for the climax of my story: "Electric Storm" by Delta Goodrem. Absolutely perfect in tune as well in lyrics! So cool! I play it before I start writing these days. (Along with the rest of my soundtrack, but for this part, this song especially!)

Tonight I resumed editing Defying Gravity! Yay! I was planning to hold off until after the election, but I got inspired to work on it RIGHT AWAY, and who's going to argue with that? :D (Incidentally the inspiration came from some of my political junkying, but I won't get too much into why as I have little time and lots to say.)

Here's an encouraging sign: though this story still will need tons and tons of work when you guys see it, it's nice to see that it's not QUITE as hopeless as I thought at one point. ;) I mean, I see lots of stuff to clean up just going back in and rereading it to reacquaint myself with where I left off, but it's not as big a disaster as I thought. Some of the things are minor fixes and others are only moderate. Of course, we still have the ending to tackle, but I can at least have confidence that I might get it down one of these drafts. ;)

Also! It's time to celebrate MARKERFEST! I have done several pictures which I have particularly liked over the past couple weeks -- in fact, three of them are from the past week alone. I have been quite busy! (I park in front of CNN on-line video and listen to that as I draw.)

This one is not impressive and also not new, but it gives a starting point to show the progress I have made in just a few weeks with my markers, and it also includes the first time I've drawn two important adult characters. (ninquenis -- IT'S WEDGE BOWDEN! :D ) Here it is:



I wonder what you guys will think of them.

Then, in my new sketchbook that I'm using for just character image pictures instead of scenes, here's the first picture I did:



It's much like what I've done before of Azilie, but this time more realistic. I was pleased with the shading of her face, which is something I'm just learning to do with markers! And her expression is a little scary, but then, Azilie is sometimes a little scary. ;)

I used a source pic for this drawing, and that's worth sharing too:



It's more the expression/posture than the hair (though it's not too far off; Azilie just has bangs) but this girl looks so much like Azilie! So this can be my realistic photo version of her! (I found one of Chiharrie too, but I'll save that for when I do a drawing of Chihi.)

Then on to the next character to get a profile picture:



Here's the second one in my new profile picture book, of Questri. I am pleased with her realism even more than with Azilie's. The background got away from me and I was really upset with it at one point, so considering that, I'm pleased with how I salvaged it and how it turned out, even if it's still flawed. I wish I had done the blacktop in a lighter grey so Questri would stand out more clearly against it, even if this is more realistic.



I am most pleased with this one, with all the details. Though there is one glaring error -- I want to say it's really obvious and that you guys could point it out to me, but if I say so and then you point out a bunch of OTHER stuff instead, I'll feel squelched so I'll just say that it's the open locker between Shanai's legs (or rather, the lack of it). I could fix this on the computer but I was too impatient and wanted to share it with you right away, and working on editing seemed more important tonight. But otherwise the open locker is one of my favorite parts. I did that last, and it felt like the scene really came to life with that detail for some reason. I love it when that happens! And I'm very pleased with everyone's expression in this one, because it captures the character dynamics I was shooting for.

There is one more picture I really want to share (which I did a few weeks ago; it's the one for which I needed to go get cool grey markers!) but it's a spoiler pic! Ack! So I'll have to send it to people who read the draft when they finish. Which is too bad, because I want to share it with people now (as I mentioned, I am feeling impatient!) but oh well, I'll exercise some self-restraint. Since I know some of you WOULD look at the spoiler pic if I posted it and I want you to be surprised at that scene if possible. ;)



(P.S. Do pictures of this size bother anyone? I like to see them all displayed on my journal, but I could cut them if they're inconveniencing anyone terribly. I made the files much smaller than most digital photos are, but if they're not small enough, I'll have to change my policy.)


And now it is much later than I meant for it to be when I got off the computer, so I shall go sleep now.

swankivy sent me another song that she thought would fit my story, and it fits even better than she could have known! Thanks, Ivy!

I already knew this song and have the MP3 on my computer, but I hadn't even thought of it yet. But it fits REALLY well.


"Only If" by Enya

When there's a shadow, you follow the sun.
When there is love, then you look for the one.
And for the promises, there is the sky.
And for the heavens are those who can fly.

If you really want to, you can hear me say
Only if you want to will you find a way.
If you really want to you can seize the day.
Only if you want to will you fly away.
When there's a journey, you follow a star.
When there's an ocean, you sail from afar.
And for the broken heart, there is the sky.
And for tomorrow are those who can fly.

Pretty much everything gets bolded for being directly relevant. :D (Though not all in the first book.)

And I just realized that the drawing I'm almost done with now is a total spoiler pic so I REALLY NEED TO FINISH MY BOOK SOON so you can read it and I can show you the picture. :D

Also, I need more markers. (Seriously, I just spent how much on a set of 72 of them and I STILL don't have every color I need? Hahaha, craziness. But it came with only warm greys and I need cool! There's just no getting around that! Well, I'm going back to Otsu/Kyoto this Saturday so I'll pick some up in either of those places. ;)

I REALLY WANT TO GET BACK TO WRITING. I'm excited about finishing this story, and REALLY excited about starting either the next Azilie story or about doing TS (because, uh, that's a rather political story, truth be told...I think that's already starting to be evident in the parts that some of you guys have read already). The problem is that my thoughts are totally tangled up in my grad school situation. It's kind of like how the only time I played video games at college was during final exams, when I just couldn't do anything else with my free time because of mental exhaustion. But I'm going to try anyway. Or at least vow to have my grad school stuff as done as possible by Election Day, so both my political geekery and my grad school dilemma can be wrapped up and I can finish this stupid draft before the end of the year. Why has it taken a year to do draft 2 when I did draft 1 in a little over 90 days? Grrr.

It really is bedtime now, but I just had to add this next song to my soundtrack. I have quite a list of songs about flying people now. :D And other things that fit the story! I should make a list but that will have to wait until it's not so late at night.

しっかり meaning something like "Getting it together!" or "Getting a firm grip on the task at hand!"

So, I've kind of been dragging on the last 40 pages of my novel. (I know, I know, I'm so embarrassed that I've been editing it for so long now and still have 40 of 110 pages to go.) This is the hardest part, 'cause I basically have to rewrite the whole ending, and this is the big climax and punchline and point and end-all be-all. (Well, no, actually I have more I want to say in sequels, but still.) So I've overwhelmed myself with my inability to make it perfect and sparkling right now. I need people's help.

But I can't get people's help until I've made it perfect and sparkling because it has to be perfect and sparkling before I can show it to anyone.

Hmmmmm.

Yeah, so, I'm hereby resigning myself to just finishing it and sort of taking a shot in the general direction I want the ending to go, and then once people help me and tell me what they're thinking and feeling about all of it, then I can recalibrate and take better aim in the next draft.

That is to say, JUST FINISH THE BLASTED THING, JESSIE!!!!

Okay. Off to edit now. Chiharrie is still yelling at Azilie.

(Gahhhhhhh, there are crickets outside and they are loud. Be quiet crickets! You sound like my shower fan creaking! There, I closed the window so now I don't have to kill them. *sweet smile*)

Yep, so that's officially my title right now. (I say officially even though it could change. But right now it has an official title and that is important to me!)

And I have another song to add to the soundtrack for my story. It fits almost as well as Defying Gravity! How cool is that? And this time it's a song that I've known and liked for a long time now, since leithal sent me a CD by the Finnish acapella group Rajaton back during my senior year at K.

The song is "You Can't Stop Me!" Here are the lyrics:

When that happened to me at first I could not see,
but then I decided not to close my eyes!
And then I found a way, and impossible way...
So you said! But it made me fly right away

Now I'm just like a token, spinning in a trance
But surprise! I don't fall and I don't choose either side!
I keep rolling around in a dance I just have found.
The laws of nature make exceptions somehow?

You can't really stop me now!

I keep balancing on but I'm good because I'm strong,
I turn when I see you reaching for me.
And it still makes me laugh when you thought you had had
all of me- but you see: I keep changing on.

You can't really stop me now!

And the tune is absolutely right on for Azilie's personality.

This one is okay to share the lyrics of because while it's obvious to me how it fits, it's not as blatant until after you read the story. :)


I now have four songs "officially" in the soundtrack, and a few more sort of floating in my head to see if they fit. I do love finding songs that can help represent my stories!


Editing update: it's going slowly. I won't make my deadline. But I'll have done pretty good for trying to make it, so that's something. I'd say my achievement is something like placing 5th in the Olympics. Still not too shabby, though I didn't quite make it on to the medals platform, let alone reach the gold. Oh well. There's always the next Olympiad novel! (Plus there's still some time to come back and try for a bronze. We'll see! My deadline is officially August 31, so....)

I did it! I got past the major difficult scene! This scene was tough enough that I hadn't even written it in the first draft; it was just a bunch of notes saying what was supposed to happen there. And it's done! Woooo!

Okay, that's all. I just had to record this in my journal. I have several more difficult scenes in need of severe self-critique and rewriting, but to have one scratched off my list is definitely a good feeling. :) With a little help from early draft readers, this scene might turn out to be a good one after all.

(This doesn't mean I've solved the issue in my previous post, however, so should you wish to comment on that, your post will not be wasted. ^_~)

Show, don't tell. How often are we told that as writers? But I think this advice is simplistic. Showing is much more interesting than telling, but you can't -- and don't want to -- show everything. Some things are better summarized because they are only of background importance and attempting to show them would bore and lose readers. Don't you agree?

Orson Scott Card wrote up a very nice article for writers on this subject which I read about a year ago; unfortunately, I can't link it because it was (whoa) on paper, and I can't even quote it because the book is on a shelf over 6,000 miles away. But it was a very good book. It helped me feel less like a dangerous rebel in my belief that you shouldn't always try to show everything.

So, if I can presume we are in agreement on this point (but if we are not, or if you simply want to discuss the topic further, please do! I find it interesting and important), I will go on to say that sometimes it's hard to tell whether you should show or tell.

I currently need to convey to the reader that a certain character is uncomfortable with Azilie. I can do this by having long scenes that are of shallow (though not non-existant) value, hoping people pick up on the signs, or I can just sum it all up saying "But [Character] was acting weird." It's not as interesting as gathering that yourself, but I'm not sure the scenes that would be necessary for the information gathering are interesting either.

This is not my favorite part of the book. It's proving very difficult and I don't expect I'll make my deadline because of how much I'm stuck on this part. (I'm even getting bored with it myself by trying to write it out in an interesting "showing" way, which is what makes me think maybe it can't be done. Or at least not by someone of my skill level.) I thin I am going to just go ahead and write the "telling" scene but save the "showing" stuff in case readers complain about this later on. Maybe I can fix it later when I'm not sick of the scene.

Any thoughts, however winding and indefinite, would be appreciated! Have you faced this in your writing? How did you resolve it?

Chapter Eight is proving a lot of work, mostly because it was just a bunch of notes mingling with paragraphs only loosely tied together, and now I have to make a real chapter out of it.

The first version I did was, frankly, boring. It was boring me even as I wrote it. The action was too subtle; there were too many small conflicts spread across too many characters, leading to a situation where I had to "tell, not show" to keep any individual thread from seeming to be more important than the others. Really, it's just a big mess in the intermediate school social world and Azilie is painfully naive about it...and it's just tedious to write. I had it all figured out what needed to happen, but it was tiresome writing it. But I DID write a lot of it, and made moderate progress last week.)

Then today I was struck by a much better way to have the events unfold -- and one that suits Azilie's character even better, since she does enjoy being at the center of attention -- and now I am rewriting all I did last week. It's frustrating to have spent all that time writing and outlining so much only to scrap all that and go back to where I was a week ago, but then, that's how this sort of writing goes. You don't settle with the boring version just for the sake of having it done; you go back and rewrite it as much as it needs so you have the best possible story, no matter how much time and effort it takes!

I hope it doesn't take TOO much time, though. I don't know if I will make my August 31 deadline, but I'm going to try! After that I have to start grad school applications, so I'd really like to have a complete second draft by then.

Still, it takes the time it takes. Just so long as I am not loafing, I will have to be okay with that.

The trouble now is trying to save the parts I did like about the old version. And also figuring out when the blow-up with a certain few other characters should happen. And I have to go back and figure out when gymnastics tryouts would be, because right now Questri and her fellow gymnasts seem a little obsessed. Argh, there are still going to be so many loose ends in this thing even when I finish the second draft. How frustrating!

But I have made progress today, too! Tomorrow at work I have to do lesson plans, but I also hope I can get a good amount of New Chapter Eight written.



Oh, and on the title dilemma -- this actually caused me to lose sleep, I was so frustrated about it, and am giving it so much thought. I will have more to say about that in a few days, probably.

...it's probably better if I don't describe the electric crackles Azilie is seeing in this scene as "just like the sparks that had flickered in the microwave that time when Chiharrie microwaved a bowl with a metal spoon in it."

Right? ^^; Heh.

(I know about this because when I was about seven and my sister was four, we turned on a bunch of microwaves in an electronics boutique that had spare parts in them and watched the crackling in awe. Oooooh. And don't blame our parents; blame the store for leaving parts in the microwaves even while plugging them in and putting them down at levels where small children can turn them on! I don't recall the store burning down in any case. ^_~)


Meanwhile, I feel like I've made myself too stupid to write by jostling my brain around trying to get water out of my ear. I think I've had water in my ear for a week now. That's bad, right? But then I made it worse today by going to the pool.


But through almost two hours of struggling with my story, just when I'm about to give up and go make dinner, NOW it seems to be working! This is a pretty important scene and yet one I can mess up pretty badly scientifically (and also suspension-of-disbeliefilly). It should be fun to write but it hasn't been because I've been agonizing over it so much. But I think I might have it now to a point that is passable for giving out in the first public draft! Yay! So I can move on and consult scientists later. ;)

Back now to writing!

I've got a new picture for Twilight Star!


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Once I finish Azilie's story, I really want to get back into working on Twilight Star. I am full of ideas to make it more condensed, more interesting. I also am tired of staring at computer screens, so drawing is a good way to work on a different project while getting away from the computer.

The characters shown are of course Celeste in the middle, with Indigo, Gabriel, and Mikaela down in the left corner, Cozoqui in the lower right, Celeste's grandma, grandpa, and uncle to the right just above her (whom I've never drawn before! Older people and men? Whoa! A challenge!), Kymathece, Esti, Sorl, and Izick (whom no reader has met yet) up in the right corner, and a mysterious young woman whom I shall not even name yet in the upper left.

This drawing is noteworthy because it's done in a realistic style. Fotosearch.com is my new favorite site for finding source pictures! It really helped me a lot. I'm not the best when it comes to realism (not that I'm anything special with cartoon style either) but I am rather pleased with the way this came out, for someone who's rusty with the style and medium and all. The paper was also cheap 100 yen shop paper and kept pilling up when I tried to erase multiple times. So it does seem a great victory to have bent it to my will!

I used my artist's set of pencils to draw it -- that is, not No. 2 lead, but F, H, HB, B, and 2-9B. This is the most ambitious piece I've made with those, so yay! Even though I got the pencils back in 2000 for Christmas, I still thought to bring them to Japan with me. I'm used to drawing in color, so having to represent color in black and white -- and even more than that, to represent light, since that's a big part of this picture! -- was a fun challenge for me.

The picture is now on the wall above my computer desk, near my glowing star curtains and aurora poster. I think it fits there quite nicely. It's about 15"x10" in real life. This was much too big to fit on my school's scanner, so I had to scan it in halves. Stiching it together was a bit of a pain since the scanner did the greyscale differently for both pictures, but thanks to some creative cutting and the dodge and burn tools, I think I mostly made up for that. Yay! I'm annoyed that you can still see the stitching on the right side (I guess I scanned it at a slightly different angle each time -- I didn't flush it to the corner of the scanner because that was doing some weird thing where it cut off the edge of the piece) but oh well, considering the trouble it took to scan this, I'm happy it worked at all.

If you have comments about the drawing or story I would of course love to hear them! :)



Speaking of artwork, I just thought I'd share that I got gift art from a 12 year old Septuplet fan on Monday! It really made my day. I love getting art from my friends who are experienced artists, but it's a different kind of special to get something from a kid learning how to use a paint program and enjoyed my stories enough to draw the characters. I had never heard from this reader before, either. Really, really cool. :)


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Or click here to go to the picture page and scroll down to the gift art section to see the new pic, the Group Shot by Micha. I set something up to forbid direct linking to JPGs by people who were stealing my images and bandwidth, but now I can't seem to unset it. It was supposed to let me specifically allow linking from LJ, too, but that doesn't seem to be working and I have no energy left to fight computer battles right now. But it's cute and makes me happy and I want to share it so I hope you'll go take a look!)


Editing update: I'm on page 42 of 120 on draft two of Azilie's story. (Which really needs a better title one of these days. Usually titles come to me somewhat easily, but not this time.) Actually, I did a fair bit of work on it (writing a new scene that it really needed) and yet that change the page count since yesterday, since it just filled in empty space at the ends of chapters. Hmph. Oh well. I really hope to be done with this draft of it by my birthday. Unfortunately, the second half of the editing will be harder than the first, since the end basically needs to be rewritten. But then, I have lots of time during the summer vacation to work on it, so I'm optimistic. (For most of July and all of August, I have no class, but I still have to go to work. I'll be taking my computer to work on my novel in the 職員室 [teachers' room].)


Okay, that's all, but if anyone feels like chatting about writing or drawing, please do feel free to strike up a conversation via e-mail or comments because I'm all excited about this subject right now. ^__^

Wow, it's been over a month since I updated this journal. Well, I took some time off to get ready for Australia, and then to go to Australia, and then to write pages and pages of a travelogue about Australia. And now I'm back (and have only one day left to go in the travelogue) and it's time to hang out in the southern hemisphere in my writing once again.

As a matter of fact, Coralians are very much like Aussies in that they love their water sports! And now I find myself at an impasse. I like how I wrote something before, but in the revision I ended up changing it for various reasons and I like the first part of it, but that means I have to remove something I like from the original version to make it consistent. And I can't decide which way I'd prefer to have it!

Maybe you guys can help me without having even read the draft. Azilie is swimming with her family in some deep water. Actually, she's scared of deep water, so she doesn't want to go in at first. In the new version, I don't have her go in at all. Her being outside of the water affects what happens later on. If she's out of the water, she might be able to see people water-skiing some distance away more easily, but it would also take out some ambiguity that is a nice complicating factor. Hmmm.

But more importantly, I think it affects her character. I want her to be scared of the water, but I guess it doesn't really add much to the story. And if she's scared but does it anyway because she can't stand to be called a scaredy-cat, that would build her character later on, I suppose. But then AGAIN, maybe rather than being someone who takes a dare, maybe she's someone who knows what she's afraid of and doesn't do it. Then, when she does other things that look crazy, it's because she just wasn't afraid of them. She has good instincts on what to be afraid of. Yeah, that's probably important for making her not appear too crazy.

So I'm not sure if she should go in the water or not.

Pros:
1. It would add ambiguity to what she sees, if she sees it while trapped on the surface of the water.
2. It shows that she can overcome her fears -- and that her dad is egging her on to do something that she's scared of, which might explain how she becomes so daring later on?
3. We can see her compare the feeling of floating in water to floating in air.
4. The scene where she splashes around all flustered after what she sees is a lot of fun.

Cons:
1. It makes the scene a lot longer if she goes in the water. Maybe people will just want me to get on with it.
2. It shows that she does something just because she's egged on to do it, even if it's by a trusted authority figure.
3. I have to rewrite the part where she's scared to make her a little less scared, to show her willingly going into the water at all.



Hmmm. There are more pros than cons, but they feel a little weaker than the cons. I really don't know what to do. I guess this is where I should stop for the night, then, and think about it more. I know you guys haven't read it, but if you read this post and have any thoughts at all, I would appreciate hearing them! Something you say might set off just the right line of thought in my brain. :)

I just wanted to share that I am learning about a ton of things thanks to Azilie's story. A couple weeks ago I was reading about coral, reef systems, and a bit about tide pools. Today I did further research (after the bits I did while writing the first draft) about cumulus humilis and other cloud types, as well as the layers of the atmosphere in general, but especially the troposphere. Did you know that the troposphere (the lowest layer of the Earth's atmosphere) is thicker at the equator but also a lot colder at the top? (I think it had something to do with convection, though I'd have to double check that.) You learn something new every day. ^^ I then ended up reading about Mt. Fuji just because I wanted to check the altitude, to compare heights of clouds and temperatures at high altitudes. Mt. Fuji is over 12,000 feet tall, which I already know is higher than some clouds from experience! ^^ But now I know the details, which will help.

Wikipedia hopping is a major distraction, but today it actually was what I was SUPPOSED to be doing as part of my editing! :)

I'm excited about this so I wanted to tell you guys about it. That is all.

I could use your thoughts on this, all you helpful people

I just changed the name of a major place in Azilie's world. It was one of the names that dates back to 1994-ish when I did the first version of this story. There's a place where the kids hang out that's always just been known as the Grove. I don't even feel that I "named" it: that's just what it was called. The Grove is a coral grove specifically -- and the town they live in also happens to be known as Coral Grove.

It occurs to me now that I have a lot of similar names (Coralia, Coral Grove [town], Coral Grove Lower School, Bay View Lower School, West Bay Intermediate School). I wonder if that's confusing. Or is it true enough to life? (Locales often use the same set of names over and over in my experience.) Also, it occurs to me that even if you can have a grove of coral, most people will think of trees when I speak of "the Grove," and they might not get an accurate picture of the place. I don't want to spend a lot of time describing it, but it's an important place. Basically, what it IS is a lagoon. So I've just changed it to "the Lagoon." I suppose that's just as colorful, and that people will probably understand it more readily, and they won't get confused when I then talk about Coral Grove Lower Schol or Coral Grove the neighborhood.

So yes, even though the place name was solid in my mind before as the Grove, this is probably for the best. Right? It's hard to change things you're used to even if logically it makes sense, so do me a favor and give me a quick thumbs-up if you think this makes sense, or tell me if you actually would have kept it as the Grove for whatever reason.

I had to dump this on you guys so I could let it go and get on with the editing and stop dwelling on that point. Doumo arigato! :)

After about a week and a half, I have sixteen solid post-edit pages, which is two chapters. (The page number before that was larger because I'm cutting out so much of the garbage! Whee, it feels better already!) I still have scads of work cut out for me, but it's encouraging to know that I CAN turn this mess into something that I'm really proud of.

And the people over at novel_in_90 are helping tons again. I'm not doing 750 words per day now, but I like those people, so I'm pseudo-participating in this round, not doing the word counts, but just posting edit updates. And even though there's been a full round in between this one and the one I finished in November, people there still remember my story and details about it. Here's just one thread that sort of touches on that (for my own self-encouraging record :) though really it just sort of comes up here and there. But wow, my concept seems to catch people. That's a tremendously encouraging sign.

And I have a list of a decent length of people from various places who want to read my novel. I still have to ask my aunt (fellow K English major and mother of two young boys) if she's still interested in reading it, maybe with my cousins. That would be pretty cool to have, you know, actual chronological children's opinions. :D To those of you who have signed up for my list, THANK YOU! It's ever so encouraging that people want to read it.

Oh, and today was the first day of school, but what did I do? Sat around editng my novel. (With breaks to read swankivy's novel, which she just finished and sent out herself. Nice timing there. ;) It's also encouraging for me because seeing someone else who has the same goal as you succeed (at least with this first step) is further motivation to do it myself. (Plus her novel is rocking my socks and is a good reward for working on mine.) So yeah. No lesson plans today -- just going from Azilie to Cassandra and back again. Hah. (And I don't feel guilty at all because starting tomorrow I have homework to grade, and starting next week I have the new improved Schedule of DOOM. Sigh.) Anyway, this editing at work thing was neat because it was the first day of school at work and also the first day of school in my novel. ;)

(And yesterday it was rainy and dreary outside and it was rainy and dreary in the novel too. Life is imitating art. Oh, and I seem to be wearing a lot of orange now. As a matter of fact I never used to care for the color orange -- high school colors ruined it for me, and even my awesome college having the same colors couldn't salvage it -- but now all of a sudden I love it. I bought an orange bicycle and an orange shoulder bag and am wearing a new light orange-sleeved baseball tee from Uniqlo which I got last weekend as some new spring clothes). All I need is a plastic headband, some wire, and some orange puffballs and I'll totally make an Azilie costume. (Hey, I bet the hyakuenya has those things. Hyakuenya = ¥100 shop, right down the street from me and much more useful than its American counterpart.)

So yeah, basically, things are going well and I just wanted to check in and say so. Because otherwise I'm way way way behind on LJing and sharing pictures and Internet communication and such. (Well, actually, I'm not as behind as I usually am! Still, though. Always so much to do!)

I have two new pictures!

The Carlson Septs: Group Senior Portrait (Scroll down to find the link to the newest picture if you'd like to see it -- I have direct image linking disabled on that directory and am too sleepy to go around that tonight. Thank you!)

Azilie's Story: Cast/Concept Poster

I'm really pleased with these two drawings -- they're consecutive pages in my sketchbook, which means I haven't wasted pages on drawings that went nowhere! I like that! (And the previous Septs' pic is just one page separated, by a TS pic that I might finish one day. This sketchbook is going very well so far.) They look better on paper than scanned, though, given the way the scanner picked up the colored pencils. It's the scanner at work so I can't tweak it as much as I would otherwise. Oh well.

The first is something I've just thought of doing for a while: a picture of the Septs with them looking as much alike as they can (well, without going to more effort than I can imagine them going to ^_~) and also something a bit more formal. So it's a classic studio portrait, taken in 1999 just before they start their senior year of high school.

The latter is the cast of Azilie's story. You can see the four main characters who got avatars posted in my last entry as well as three others who are important as well. The background is also sigificant. I had fun drawing those clouds! The characters are, from left to right, Liely, Romie, Questri, Azilie, Chiharrie, Solar, and Seagin. I am really excited about you guys getting to meet these guys.

Though I have frustrating news on that front. I wanted to rewrite all of Chapter Two today, but by pulling out all the garbage, I ended up condensing the scene down to what feels just infodumpy and yucky. I need to remind myself that "second draft" does not equal "final draft." I put off all my high standards in the first draft for the sake of just getting the story out, but now I feel like I have to make it perfect before I can show it to anyone! Nooo...then it'll NEVER get out! Because it will never be perfect! But I can make it better than this...but not tonight. Because I can't tell what to do with this scene until I ask people how they react to it. It's a paradox: it won't be good enough to show to people until I show it to people, but I can't because it's not good enough to show to them! Ack!

That's why we have people read our first (and second) drafts, I suppose...but I'm such a perfectionist that it's hard for me. So take this as my "I know it's not perfect! I know! I'm not so ridiculous as to think this is any good right now!" disclaimer. (Well, honestly, actually I think it IS half-way decent right now; maybe even two-thirds decent. I just wanna get that other third down.)

Sigh. I wish I had gotten more done. I dwelled on this too much and stalled. Plus my brain went crazy spinning on all the thoughts and an unusual bombardment of e-mails.

I am happy to report that I have had a fairly productive day today. I have had plans to hang out with all sorts of fun people for the past week or so, and today I decided to continue that by hanging out with Azilie. ;)

The biggest news is that I have started my second draft! This is the draft I will be sharing with people. If you're interested, let me know! (I'm sure I'll ask another ten or fifteen times before I actually am ready to send it out, but it's never too early to let me know you're interested. ^^ It helps me edit even faster!) I actually started a little bit last night, but I didn't get home until about 11. I worked on it until almost 1 and then just got too sleepy. I have gotten up to page 7, which is almost all the way through Chapter 1. I hope to finish the chapter tomorrow. (Then again, I also hope to figure out what the IRS wants from me tomorrow, so I may have to abandon hope for everything else.)

Then after two sessions of editing, I worked on coloring a group illustration. I want to finish that tomorrow too and scan it this week. While I colored it, I talked to my friend Teresa on IM (who also happens to be a JET, but I met her through my web site -- turns out she is a writer too) about stories, and...watched Harry Potter in Japanese. I found this accidentally after a round of DDR, just as I was about to switch the TV off. (When I'm doing creative projects and my mind starts to wander, I do something active for 10 minutes or so and then I focus better. DDR is great for that!) It's really funny to see Harry and the gang speaking Japanese. Dobby speaks in 謙譲語 (humble form)! Which may be obvious, but I'm still excited that I pick up on these things. レーヴェンクラーに十点！ (That is, ten points to Ravenclaw! Which I just awarded to myself for understanding most of the movie. ^^)

And then I finished up some pictures I made with one of those on-line avatar makers that leithal pointed out to me. (I edited them while doing a conference call on Skype spanning three time zones! Wow, that makes my life sound much more exciting than it is.) So I shall leave you now with Azilie and her three most important supporting protagonists. :) I hope you like them. (And that you want to know more about them!)



From left to right, we have Azilie, her little sister Chiharrie, her best friend Questri, and her other close friend and rival, Solar. I added the puffs myself since the avatar maker didn't have those. Questri doesn't actually play volleyball, but she's a gymnast, and this was the best gym backdrop they had.

And now it's bedtime. I am looking forward to doing more tomorrow!

I've just finished editing the printout of my novel!

After taking a few days' break and working on a bunch of other projects -- getting photos of my apartment on-line, catching up on e-mail, posting some essays and writing still more, working on my JET essay contest entry -- I am going to start revising using the computer. I hope to be done with that by the end of April, if not sooner, but I've never done this before so I don't know how long it will take!

The story needs lots and lots of work, but the good news is that I have figured out ways to begin to fix some of the major flaws in the plot. There is hope for this story!

I'm very excited about having reached this milestone! :)

I thought I'd check in and share that the editing is going swimmingly thus far. I just started marking up page 44, which is the beginning of Chapter Six. I did a lot of nit-picky line/concept editing in the first few chapters, but in the upcoming ones, I simply have huge gaps and sketchy sections that I have to fill in after having figured out what should happen there. So it'll be a different kind of editing that I do soon.

Monday marks two weeks since I printed out the 136-page draft. (It was 170+ but I shrank the font to 10 point and used 1.5 line spacing instead of double to save paper.) I have punched it with the 30-hole punch at work and put it in a big blue binder, covered the binder with shiny star stickers, and purchased myself a special fine point red pen and a purple-black pen to use for line-edits and general notes respectively. I have two different kind of sticky-tabs marking various things in the pages so far. I have figured out better ways to handle parts that were stressing me out as I wrote them without that much extra effort now that I can see from the perspective of the completed draft. And I'm on page 44 of 136 in less than two weeks!

Yep, it's going great. :) I'm feeling very good about this project right now. ^____^

At this rate, maybe I'll finish this by the end of February, then do the revisions to the actual computer file, and then have it ready to show to friends by early springtime. :) (Especially since I intend to lock myself inside as much as I can in the winter -- it is too cold to be biking anywhere!)

I'm having a lot of trouble starting on this. I'm sitting down for my third attempt, and given that I'm here in my LJ, you can see it's not going ideally.

I've never had a whole novel draft to revise before, and I'm reaziling that, frankly, I don't know how to do it. I convinced myself that it would be okay to write a really awful first draft...but NOW I make it perfect, right? Right??

Sigh.

Maybe now what I need to do is just figure out what the heck is going on in the story. That's probably a good place to start.

The strange amount of "consuming" I've been doing (as opposed to "producing," both in reference to media, not to food...though I would also like to go eat some almond tofu and nata de coco now instead of writing) is surely related to this. Wow.

It's so easy NOT to write, you know?

(I mean, yes, I am one of those people who "has" to write because it's part of me...but sometimes this still happens. At least it didn't happen so much on the actual writing of the draft. But this editing thing...!)

Also, the haunting image of people trying to pull off and snap my toenails has come back with a vengeance, and I have a headache. Whiiiiine.

NO JESSIE NO! EDIT YOUR DRAFT!

Okay, here's my plan. (Thoughts on it are more than welcome.)

1. Just read the silly thing. Don't even get distracted by note taking. The point is to have it all fresh and sharp in my mind.

2. Take notes on characters, places, motivations (especially with MINOR characters, as Azilie's pretty much down). Make them consistent and flesh them out / trim them as necessary. (Drawing characters counts as working at this stage, I hereby declare. It'd help me visualize the minor ones! I often negelect physical details of my characters.)

3. Do an outline of the plot so that things can be made consistent, noting which segments need to be reordered. Cut out storylines that went nowhere.

4. Only after this should you start writing anything else! Unless it really strikes you. Where by you I mean YOU. *points to self*


I suppose I might try printing this thing and editing it on paper. I'm told that helps. What do you say, fellow writers? Does it help? Does it help enough to merit my taking 120+ pieces of my school's paper and the corresponding amount of toner? Hmmmm.